We relocated to Europe, Amsterdam in 2019, and have been living here now for a year. COVID has taken the world by the neck and choking the sense of living and security we took for granted a year ago. Good health and well being is our most important focus in a world where health is never a certainty. Our home is an apartment alongside the sea in the north of Holland, filled with strong energy and sense of being, however the sense of joy is muted by the unknown of COVID, and the separation from Thomas who is in Australia is increasingly difficult. So life could change as we know it now, but only time will tell the untold story.

27 July, 2020
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My entry from July 2012, holds true today, December 18, 2016. The further evolution of my thinking in the last four years, is that life can be full of other worlds if we allow these to become part of our existence. Our world, planet earth, is only a small, tiny, insignificant part of the galaxies that span above us in the sky.

Perhaps my blog might capture, the balance of my everyday life as a mere mortal, with human tendencies, vanities and adventures, as well as capturing the other side - the higher intelligence of those we cannot yet see or who we do not yet know. Adventure, beliefs outside our current belief system and the thirst for knowledge is a powerful combination. More powerful than I have ever known.

December 2016
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This blog is my canvas, a padded room that offers sanity and peace in world of tumultuous and unexplained chaos. I welcome chaos for it keeps us curious. Sometimes words form of their own and mark a journey that never reaches its destination, full of blind corners and unexpected quiet glades on the path. Perhaps that best defines where the words come from. It isn't random, and it's equally unordered. It is what it is. I am what I am.

July 2012
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I may need to change the original reason for the blog for it was conceived as a canvas for writing about the design and build of the new house. But of late my posts have nothing to do with this. It's about the art of observation. It's about finding a canvas to write of the things that really matter but often seem so large and all encompassing that a solution is hard to fathom. It's about taking the hopeless sense of being one small person on a planet that is escalating into decline and airing this. It's about writing of other human beings who I admire or despise. Anything should make its way to these pages.

June 2009

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Designing and building a house is a journey full of stops and starts, beginnings and endings, of dreams that are so out of snych with reality and end results that are far in the distance.

We have taken a second approach to building our house of dreams - the first journey ended in resignation and a small measure of despair that architects can be so far removed from the real cost of building. But now that we're here, re-commencing this process from scratch,  we've regained confidence and new hope in a journey that we hope will bring to reality a house of dreams.

Along the way, I expect we'll learn about the pitfalls of building, as well as the joys of watching the design on paper become concrete walls and timber floors and that eventually the spirit of our lives will fill the walls and halls of  our new home and make this a statement of our lives and who we are - filled regularly with those who we love and who we hope will grace our home with friendship.

It will also be home to our little one who will grow within this house as a seven year old and is the single most important anchor point whose presence, energy and spirit will always makes our house a home.

March 2008